Month: October 2016

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After finally dragging myself upstairs for a 5-minute workout, I took a deep breath of relief and the words, “Attitude is everything” popped into mind (soul talk comes at the strangest moments).

Magpie-mind had been berating me all morning to get upstairs and jump around – “you lazy, lazy girl!”

I even refused to do what I wanted to do because I couldn’t bear to toe the magpie line. It just pissed me off being run around by that noisy bird.

But the bullying stopped within one minute of running in place. There was absolute silence by the time I was mid down-dog yoga stretch and full complete out-of-body release during the post-activity sitting meditation.

Not 10 minutes later I’m rinsed clean within and without. Almost apologetically, I asked my soul to spur me to easy morning activity in the future, so to avoid harassment by the guilt factory built so large and imposing smack in the middle of my psyche.

Attitude is everything, yes, but Guilt is my go-to god’s dog, I even wrote a poem about it, mixing metaphors because man and animal are the same biotic essence, with man’s “thinking” function being a special attribute of consciousness that allows Nature to consider itself, thus “con-ceiving” anew, with unique generativity.

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I’ll share that poem next time, but the guilt dog within is a foundational aspect of my psyche I have yet to evict from my property. It’s even a beloved bossy-dog, eager-eyed and oh so willing to please. It’s quick and vibrant and totally expectant of the reward that comes from minding its constancy.

“See?” my guilt dog says, “I really do know what’s best for us. Just listen to me. I’m never wrong. You do what you want until it’s time to be somewhere and I’ll be right at your side, yapping and reminding you that you have to do or say something. Right? OK? Right?”

He is right – to a point. More on that later.

Until then, Guilty and I have an interview to do.

See you later.

dragons-1514416_640Nightmarish and dreadful, dragons of doubt and agida disturb my sleep. But 5 people in the last week have said the same thing. Either it’s the full moon’s seductive call to revelry in beam-bright woods outside my bedroom door, or more likely it’s pre-election jitters and post-debate telepathy.

Even though I’ve unfollowed as much of the “nasty” election stuff as possible from emails and FB (as good friend Gail Golden – jeweler extraordinaire de Taos – prescribed for my “electionitis”), I can still feel/see the air is fairly purple with mental and emotional dis-ing content (that’s actually quite a brilliant neologism if I do say so myself: dis-ing + content = dis-content, meaning “content intended to put someone down”).

Regardless the cause, the dragons are searing the ethers within, roaring and fire-breathing outraged sensibility at being roused from their ancient slumber. I haven’t done any research yet to see what historically gets under a dragon’s scaly skin, but I suspect it doesn’t really matter. Feels like you just rather would let that sleeping monster lie.

Hopefully just calling their name and saying firmly, “Basta!” will be enough to give me back my restful nights. Ya think?